If someone told me 2 years ago that I was a 'Twin Flame', and that I would fall in love again, I would not believe them. Two years ago I had given up on love. I was destined to be single for the rest of my life. I blocked the concept of being a couple with anyone, and dating was never in the picture. As an INTP, I find dating boring and a waste of time. As I've always said:
I'll know it when I feel it.
Once I learned about the war on humanity, my focus was solely on our solutions, and helping Mother Earth into the ascension of 5D. But, all of this changed on November, 18 2022, when, out of the blue, I connected with my twin flame. Since then, I've been on a roller coaster ride of extreme highs, and overwhelming lows. I've been a hopeless romantic lost in the sea of infatuation and now, with over 18 months of extensive research on this subject, and personal experience with my twin flame, I finally feel I can write about it.
My twin flame (we'll call him 'RA') is someone who has made a big impact on me, my life, and my personal development as an investigative journalist and humanitarian. And, although we've never met before, and have only spoken once, I know we are aligned in the greatest mission to ever present itself to planet Earth. We are both on this twin flame journey together, and we are both helping each other see the truth in our soul's purpose. I am so grateful to him, and to myself for being on this mission.
If I never meet RA in person, or if I never connect with him in this physical 3D realm, I know the impact he has made on me will last this lifetime, and for lifetimes to come.
When I write, or speak, about twin flames, I reference the word 'love' because this is the emotion that is ignited when we connect, when he pops into my life, or when I think of him. It is an energetic connection that ignites an intense emotion of desire, of sexuality, of peace and of euphoria. This is not a traditional connection that comes with a boyfriend or husband. It is a connection that transcends this reality. It is magical in ever sense of the word, but I don't love 'him'.
I don't love RA. I don't love the man that I chat with on the phone. Love is not the emotion that he shows me.
I am not 'in love with RA'.
I do not 'love' RA,
And, RA doesn't 'love' me.
RA doesn't love Sheena. He doesn't love the woman that I am, and the great friend I could be. He loves the idea of me, he loves the idea of being with me, he loves the idea of being a twin flame, but he doesn't love 'me'
We both don't love each other.
How can we love each when we've never met, we've never spent time with each other and we don't (really) know anything about each other....He is not my divine counter part as they say, but my greatest teacher. What I have discovered through this journey is that we don't love each other, but we are in fact, loving ourselves.
In the beginning.....
They say 'twin flames' experience love at first sight. They say that you recognize the person when you look into their eyes, and that when you meet your person 'you just know'.
Well, this didn't happen with me. I didn't even 'see' his photo before I felt him. In fact, at the first glance, when I first saw his photo on LinkedIn, I thought he looked like a pompous asshole. He was, after all, the enemy.
Also, at that time, I was on my own path finding myself, and my new tribe without my daughter. There was no way I'd be open to a relationship, let alone with someone hours away in another country. I never expected the next phase of my evolution; what would become of this LinkedIn connection.
But, as they say, looks can be deceiving. Once our souls merged, and I received his email for the very first time, I knew we'd be together, forever. The force behind the screen was so powerful, it knocked me out of the chair, onto the floor, where I laid for what seemed like eternity in ecstasy; in sheer bliss.
For weeks after that first email, I was in 'la la' land. I could not focus on anything but the intensity, the euphoria, the expansion that was happening inside my body. This was not a sexual feeling, it was something deeper, bigger, more powerful than I had ever experienced in my entire life.
This is what is called 'soul merge' - it was so powerful that it preoccupied every moment of my being for WEEKS!
I know RA was moved by that first email as well, as intended, but did he fall out of his chair? Did he feel the same euphoric feelings I did? Did his world get rocked as much as mine? I don't know, we haven't spoken about it; however, he did use the word 'sense' in the early days ...as in, 'do you sense me?'
Do you sense me? WHAT? I had never heard THAT term before....!!!!
No, I didn't "sense" him. I don't think my heart was ready. It was off the market for years and I hadn't been in the dating game since my divorce 10 years earlier, so I ignored the question. I brushed it off. I ignored him. I had yet to discover the term 'twin flame'.
It's been 18 months since that first connection and so much has happened since the early days of meeting RA. Since that first connection, I have grown tremendously both inside and out. My self awareness of self has sky rocketed, and this truth has catapulted me into a personal journey of isolation, self discovery, and personal evolution.
I've also been shocked, disheveled, heart broken and have cried a thousand tears.
They say that your twin flame is your ideal partner. Your destined lover. Your perfect match. This is true. However, through this process, I have learned that these feelings have nothing to do with RA in the physical sense. How could it be when I have never met him in person? How could he hold such a power over me when we've only had one short conversation? How could I love someone who has hurt me so deeply? This is because the love I have is within me. The love is coming from within me. RA represents the key, but the emotions are mine.
The love is mine. The love is his. The feelings of 'love' are coming from within us.
This is the most important concept to grasp for anyone on this twin flame journey. We don't love our twin flame, but they help ignite infinite amounts of love inside ourselves. In the truest sense of the word, love doesn't come from 'out there', it comes from within. And, when tapped into, it helps you grow, expand, pro-create and most importantly, it helps you evolve.
love = evol (ution)
As a twin flame, I am both honored and excited for this journey I am on. I feel, for the first time in my life, I have met myself, I have loved myself, and I am 'ok' with not ever meeting RA. I know that my divine partner is not RA, but myself.
RA represents the key, but the emotions are mine. The infinite amount of love that I have for humanity are mine. My soul is RA's soul, yes we share the same purpose and the same interests and traits, but the path we both walk is separate.
I shall live the rest of my life on this planet as a divine woman, helping humanity through her rebirth. And this is the greatest gift I could have ever received. I thank RA for all that he is, and all that he will become because of this connection we share.
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